I don’t know where that Andrea is, but I’m desperately trying to find her again.
Things have been a whirlwind and my life got caught up in the moment.
When I started the health coach certification program I had no idea how time consuming it would be. Suddenly my mornings and evenings were taken up with homework, conference calls, and webinars.
I had to stop martial arts training in the evenings because I needed those evenings free to meet with folks or to do homework.
My running got put on hiatus because of an injury. An injury that I know was a direct result of having to stop my Muay Thai training (no strength training and no cross training means an injury will happen. Funny how that works.).
Lack of running, lack of training, and feeling myself start to spiral down the drain was stressing me out.
Silently I was freaking the hell out. On the outside I played it cool. “Oh whatever, it’s just temporary. Go with the flow.”
If you know anything at all about me, I am not a go with the flow kind of girl. There needs to be a plan! And a schedule! And a routine!
School totally killed my routine. I was depressed about not running and not training, emotions I totally kept to myself.
I’m a balls-to-the-wall exerciser. I like to kick ass and have my ass kicked. I want to sweat, swear, and feel amazing afterwards. It’s why I like running and why I like martial arts.
But two of my outlets were taken away from me. My biggest stress relievers were out of reach.
With running, every time I felt like I was making progress something knocked me back down. The farthest I’ve run this year was 5 miles and that was several months ago. I’m currently back at square one, running 2.5 miles and building up.
I’ve finally had enough. It’s time to get the old Andrea back. The one who was fit, and strong, and confident.
The picture above is my goal. I want to look like that again and run like that again. I printed it out and have it taped to my refrigerator. Every day I see it. When I think about not running or giving up, I think of that picture.
It’s my reminder of who I used to be and who I want to be again.